Woah! Time Out! What Did You Just Say?

Just Now - Marilyn Manson - The Dope Show

Ok so now, I'm seething. This blog is going to be hard to write because it concerns someone who is very close to the only person who reads my blog but I'm I can't hold in my utter disbelief. So I'm sorry Hanna.

The last week has been an utter nightmare with her. On Tuesday I told her we were going to the centre on Thursday after school. She went "I never knew anything about this" which to I replied "I'm telling you now". The next thing to come from her lips, basically well, astounded me.

"I never get invited anywhere."

Well, I couldn't hide my utter resentment. I went "What?" and then an uncomfortable silence. Wherever we go, without fail she is always invited - Calderglen, bowling, going into town, etc. She's always invited. So that alone was enough to go over the edge.

So next day I knew she hadn't been feeling well at lunch the day before so in my usual way - nice, bright and always with a caring tone, I asked "Are you feeling better?"

I can't remember her exact words - probably the shock of her response but I do know she jumped down my throat. What's hard about saying Yes, thanks for the concern. I care about her and I was trying to see if she was ok. Look at the thanks I get.

Tonight was the last straw. Leigh had asked me down to the centre tomorrow and I went yes. Then Charlotte came on msn and invited her to go down the centre with her. I waited fifteen minutes for her to invite me. Me, the person who I'd known the longest. The person who introduced her to the group. The person who without, wouldn't be able to call these people her friends. I even prompted her by saying "What you up to at the weekend?" Her response " Nothing much, going down the centre and buying a birthday cake". I'm not saying she's lying - she just missed a few details like "I've invited Leigh, Do you want to come?

Well, rage swelled through my body. I rang Sara. She was with James. They really are amazing people. Sara always listens to you and agrees and soothes your rage whilst James has the ability to make me say everything I'm feeling. What would I do without them?

I'm not going to say anything to her. If she wants it this way, fine. Even if I did say something, If I know this person, She will deny saying anything of the sort. It's not the first time but I thought she might have matured a little to tell me to my face she doesn't want to be around me.

Secondlastly, I'm sorry Hanna. I hope when you read this, it won't make things awkward between her or myself. I would hate to lose you. Ever since you came to Scotland I've really enjoyed learning about you, your culture, attempting to (and failing miserably) speak in Swedish. Your like a breath of fresh air and I truly believe I've made a best friend in you. I'll be unconsolable when you return to Sweden.

And finally, I'd like to announce the arrival of my new baby cousin, Annabel Adaline MacDonald, born on the 8th November and guess what? She's a real cutie!

Defining The Word Gorgeous.